Its the beginning of time....FALL

I could not be more thankful at this moment. I have been dreaming of the 70 degree year round weather of SAN DIEGO for years. However this is my first fall in Chicago in 3 years and it reminds me how much I love it. Yes fall hasn't completely hit us yet, but its starting and it feels "fantastical." :) All the layers, sweaters, the leaves changing, and that awesome brisk air that hits your face, puts the biggest smile on my face.

I think this all started since I was a young child. Fall for me means a new start. (I guess this could apply to any season.) Just think about it for a second, since we were young we started school at the beginning of each fall, we started many sports, clubs, new friendships, new classrooms, new teachers, new clothes, shoes, the beginning of productive activies, etc... You get the point. I seriously get butterflies in my stomach just thinking about it. It reminds me of high school football, as I marched midfield on the football field playing my clarient.

Spectacular colors everywhere, its like the life of a city is born again. Everyone is out, vacations are over, bustling cities wide awake.  I, my friends, am the "weird girl" walking around with a huge smile for absolutely no reason whatsoever! I don't even notice it, it just happens:)

It such a carefree time. "Young folks" by peter bjorn and john comes to my head. The good old UIC days living it up in Little Italy. Living in Chicago, so full of mysteries and adventures. There is always a memorable time in fall. But the amazing thing is not the past, its the new memories I will create this year.

For my little heart's sake please go out and enjoy fall, go running, sit by the window with your favorite sweater and a glass of red vino. I don't care just feel the start of something new.

To Beach or not to BEach?

It seems that my brain comes up with my deepest thoughts at this hour. A crazy sense of emotions with unanswered questions. There have been many, and I mean MANY times where I have wanted to be in my "own" little world. Where I could choose the people, live in a different country and not deal with others.

As I watched the movie ~The Beach~ I realized why this would not work. A secret place that no one knows about except those people living there with you. You forget what reality is, you began to create what you believe is real. You cannot grow! (Anyone want to go to Thailand? j/k)  The funny thing is desire is desire wherever you go.

How can one convince themselves that what others do is wrong and blindly see pass your own "wrong?" However when that realization comes, when one can truly realize that what they are telling another is the same thing they should be working on, well that my friend is growth.

We can be too naive in this life to think that we are great, boast to believe what we do is greater than what others do. A sort of self accomplishment. I know this may sound like a huge question, but it really isn't. What is our purpose? To show how great we are, to prove we can do it better than the other? What accomplishments we can complete? Of course not, why can't we realize the simple answer to this question and why, oh why is it so hard to except the answer?  That void can only be filled temporarily.

VOID= Not occupied; unfilled.Completely lacking; devoid